Global Conscious Kids

 

I am speaking for all Deaf women. I had a bad experience with a fantasy author who started getting recognition for his works. He showed no respects for Deaf women. He dated with a Deaf filmmaker before me and it was short because she was not impressed with his behaviours. I left a long message in his FB messenger and he blocked me. So I left the messages on his YouTube and he hide it.  You are talking to a rapist. He raped me. I don’t know if he did this to other women before me. He didn’t rape the Deaf filmmaker but she left him because she wasn’t impressed with his attitude and his behaviours. He didn’t show remorse for what he had done to me some years ago. He told me he respected women but it was far from the truth. On the second day, we went to the park. We had the picnic there. He wanted to have a physical close with me. I told him no. I shook my head and said no no no no. He kept pressuring me to give him a hug again, again, again. He demanded me violently. I kept shaking my head no no no no. Finally he stopped demanding me. He called himself a pacifist but what he did was very controlling and violent. Other day after that, I told him that I had bad experience with men and I didn’t like French kiss. He ignored me and French kissed me. He violated the boundary by taking over my body. He wrote that he agreed with me that we should take this date slow but he didn’t.  Other night after French kissed me, he yanked my top repeatedly while I held my top firmly. My body language told him that I was not ready to take my clothes off for him. He pulled my top very aggressively again, again, again. Then he wrote down that he saw my breasts before and wanted to have a skin to skin with me. I was thinking, “If you saw my breasts before, it didn’t mean you had the right to demand me to take my clothes off.” I never showed him my breasts, he was a pervert to see my breasts without my awareness.He nodded harshly to demand me to give in. Unfortunately I gave in. He was very controlling.   In the bathroom, he tried to cut my public hair without asking me for my permission. I didn’t want to be naked with him BECAUSE I WAS NOT READY TO SHARE MY BODY WITH HIM. I only knew a few days. He touched my vagina with his penis many many times without my permission and I kept telling him no no no no. No means no. What was fucking matter with him??? If he wants to have sex with her, he has no right to touch her vagina with his penis just because he didn’t know the sign language. He MUST write on a note, vocalize or gesture to ask a Deaf woman if he wanted to have sex with him. He violated my boundary.  I got $60 for my birthday and I paid him so he could give me a bicycle after he fix it. He didn’t. He didn’t say happy birthday to me. HE STOKE MY MONEY. IT WAS MY BIRTHDAY GIFT FROM MY SISTERS. IT BROKE MY HEART. Other time, I texted him what had happened to me on the TTC bus. I texted him that the man touched my leg and I pushed him away. He didn’t reply. He showed NO SYMPATHY!  I emailed him everyday long stories about myself and he didn’t reply to most of my emails. He didn’t know the sign language. It hurts me because if he wanted to communicate with me and wanted me to know him better; he need to email me and tell more about himself because gesturing and writing on notes are limited. Every time, I met him, he showed no motivation to learn the sign language. When I visited his place, he obviously didn't show any interest that he wanted to learn the sign language. He told me to watch the TV with him, and it was very very insulting! I wanted to talk with him. NEGLIGENCE!  I emailed him the flyer about ASL class and he replied that he would like to take this class but he didn't know when he had the time to take this class because he was busy. If you like someone, you would prioritize the time to learn the sign language but He didn’t. NEGLIGENCE! I know who is the Deaf filmmaker the author dated. According to her story. He invited her to his friend’s place for the game. People there were hearing. My Deaf friend felt left out because she didn’t understand what people were saying. He wasn’t supportive. He didn’t tell her what people said or what she needed to know. And she said he showed his cold attitude. He showed a lack of empathy. My Deaf friend and I discussed about him. She believed that he was a sociopath but I think he is more a narcissist. Because he was so manipulative and insensitive. He felt rejected when I said no. When he felt rejected, he became violent and became manipulative to get what he wanted. I hope one day the justice will be done on him.